
One thing the pagans need to remember is that there is always drama. I went to a pagan festival up in the mountains in NC this past weekend with my husband and two friends. Not only was it a major disappointment but me and my family were insult(ie My husband was told by the founder of the event that he should leave me) and they also treated my friends horribly. I don't want to go back but my husband wants to keep the peace and so therefore even though he was told many things to insult me he feels the person that told him this was only trying to help and loves us enough to say these things to us. ME? I feel like this person was a major asshole. There is no reason to treat other people like this in my eyes and yet my husband tries to make excuses for all these people. This is the same thing that happened with his ex. She insulted the shit out of me and yet he still feels the need to talk to her. Where is his limit? Where is it too much? It scares me to think that no matter how people treat me he will never stand up for me or my family. I mean I can see the other person's point of view but i mean what kind of husband just over looks all the people that insults me. I mean if you just turn off the emontional part of yourself and just look at it all logicly then why would you just cuss someone out when it's not going to help the situation. But.....oh well nothing more i can do but get over it.
So here comes another yule without my husband. I'm getting sick of this. Being alone during the holidays really suck. But boy it has been a year. So many things have happend. I've meet so many wonderful new people. I found a pagan community that i feel i truely belong to. My fire dancing has gotten better. I'm taking steps to make it my primary job. Small steps but still steps and thats all that matters at this point. Trying to make my dreams come true. This year has been full of ups and downs. My husband came home from Germany after being there for 2 years, only to be sent off after just 4 months, to Quatar for 6 months. Although he should be home in time for my 23 b-day. Also i plan on very soon another tattoo that a friend is going to do for me. Its a phoenix, black and gray. It represents my love for poi and how my new identity was formed from just lily's mom to Lily's mom and fire dancer. It's been a year since i started doing poi and 1 year on New Years that i started spinning fire. Never forget the first time i spun fire. I was mad at Cruz because he ditched me for crazy physco person and i wanted to spin fire and damn it if I wasn't going to first spin fire without my teacher. I was being petty but it was amazing. Scary as hell but amazing. Oh and speaking of firespinning I'm getting the hubby a fire whip and a fire sword so that he and derwin can get some fights going. Derwin on staff and brett on fire sword. :) i spoil my men thats for sure. Well thats all for right now. Spin on all.
Ha, bet you thought it was me that was pregnant huh? Nope read on baby. Ever have one of those days where life just grabs you by the balls and just squeezes everything you try to get away. Its been one of those days. To start off I’m trying desperately to find a job. I’m trying to keep myself busy and make some cash while I try to get the babysitting stuff taken care of. So I’ve been dealing with that stress. Also I haven’t gotten my stemlus check by the good old government yet. So another thing that I need to check into. But also I found out that my dog that I just got 2 months ago is pregnant with at lest 8 puppies. And she’s a small dog to begin with. So 8 puppies is going to be hard on her. Plus we don’t even know how it happened. We haven’t had her for very long. We couldn’t get her spade because she had a cough when we got her and they didn’t want to get her fixed while she was sick. So they told us to call back in 2 weeks when she was feeling better. I didn’t call them back totally forgetting it and they give me a call yesterday saying she need to come in. I didn’t even know that she was pregnant until yesterday because I honestly thought that she was just getting fat. Nope I’ve got a mama dog. I’m really really worried that she will not be able to pass the puppies and we can’t afford an C-section so they would have to put Lexie and the puppies down. So I’m freaking out. I feel a bit better that I know whats going on a bit more than before but still very scary. I think that we are going to let her try to have the puppies and see what happends. The vet said that there is no reason right now why she shouldn’t be able to pass the puppies right now. But in 2 weeks who knows. Might as well let her try tho. Wish us luck, lexie should be having the puppies within 2 weeks.
- Mood:
frustrated

So my birthday just passed and i'm now 22. 21 wasn't anything. I must admit i'm dispointed over 21 but i guess i'm over it now, due to the whole i'm 22 now. So i went out with somefriends on Sat and totally locked my keys in my car. So we chill out in the bar for a couple of hours and then i have to call Pop-a-lock and pay $55 dollars to get my keys. I hate doing that but i haven't locked my keys in the car for a full year so its not all that bad. I'm really looking forward to Beltane this weekend. I'm going down to Our Haven and can't wait to see everyone. Plus i'm taking a couple of friends and hopely my sister to experience Our Haven. I just really can't wait. When the weather gets better i plan on making day trips down there with the Bear. I'm going to the witches meet tomorrow so that should be fun. Its something to do and i haven't been in a while. Life gets in the way u know. So Brett should becoming home soon in April. Then in end of May its "see ya later Indy" and "Hello Charleston". I can't wait to get out of Indy for while. THere are too many bad memories. Be glad to start over with Brett. I wonder if he misses me as much as i miss him. Yeah yeah i can be mushy. He just had surgery, he's doing quite well in the recovery. U know brett can't keep that man down. He gets a couple of weeks off so he's happy and he's getting some much needed rest. And having tons of friends over. Whenever i call him there is always someone over. :) I miss him tho. Anyho. Lily is doing well, can you believe that she's going to be 4 this year. We'll be in CHarleston for her birthday or at lest thats the plan. I'm planning on buying her her own set of Pink Poi, since she keeps bothering me for mine. They make some just for 4-5 year olds and i plan to get her those. Speaking of poi i'm getting alot better even in the absence of my teacher and I bought my first fire fans so that i can start practicing. I'm hoping to let my sister do fire fans at her wedding. I think it would really pretty. BUt i have a couple of months before that. So thats all for now. Love ya

- Location:Home
- Mood:
chipper - Music:Rent Soundtrack
So here's another update. The situtaion over in germany is this, i ended up calling Tony(kari's soon to be ex), he informed
me that there is indeed a video tape of his wife and my husband having sex. I informed him that i don't believe him and I'll
wait until i see actuall proof. He understood, we had a pleasent converstation really. He just felt that he needed to let me
know what was going on. Brett told me to day that Tony told Keri that there is no video and that he was just making it all
up. So hopefully now everything will settle down and Wolf will come home. At lest here's to hoping.
So Imbloc can upon me rather suddenly this year. I didn't get anything planned. What ended up happening was 2 friends came over
i ended up getting sick off my ass drunk and watched the rest of the 2nd season of Dexter. Which by the way anyone that has not
seen that show is missing out big time. But i ended up being drunk mind you, just liting a candle to celebrate. And thats it.
*sighs* Next holiday tho I'm going to do something more. I feel like i'm not being a very good pagan.

In other news I've made a point to try to loose some weight. I've been eating far too much and not healthy at all. I need to do alot
more poi like i used to and i need to eat less and better when i do eat. I need to start taking my lunch to work instead of eating out,
now that will save me money and help my weight as well. SO those are the ideas. I also need to get my name changed too. Now don't look at
me like that, I've been busy and haven't gotten it changed yet. Plus i want to get my taxes done first and then change it. So as soon as my
taxes are done i'll get my name changed. Now that is that. So Tibo here i come once again.

me that there is indeed a video tape of his wife and my husband having sex. I informed him that i don't believe him and I'll
wait until i see actuall proof. He understood, we had a pleasent converstation really. He just felt that he needed to let me
know what was going on. Brett told me to day that Tony told Keri that there is no video and that he was just making it all
up. So hopefully now everything will settle down and Wolf will come home. At lest here's to hoping.
So Imbloc can upon me rather suddenly this year. I didn't get anything planned. What ended up happening was 2 friends came over
i ended up getting sick off my ass drunk and watched the rest of the 2nd season of Dexter. Which by the way anyone that has not
seen that show is missing out big time. But i ended up being drunk mind you, just liting a candle to celebrate. And thats it.
*sighs* Next holiday tho I'm going to do something more. I feel like i'm not being a very good pagan.
In other news I've made a point to try to loose some weight. I've been eating far too much and not healthy at all. I need to do alot
more poi like i used to and i need to eat less and better when i do eat. I need to start taking my lunch to work instead of eating out,
now that will save me money and help my weight as well. SO those are the ideas. I also need to get my name changed too. Now don't look at
me like that, I've been busy and haven't gotten it changed yet. Plus i want to get my taxes done first and then change it. So as soon as my
taxes are done i'll get my name changed. Now that is that. So Tibo here i come once again.
- Mood:
working
So here I am for another update. I'm trying to blog more, maybe it would help me more. Don't know. So yeah the sitation over in Germany is getting worse. Katie's soon to be ex husband contacted me wanting to talk to me. I'm going to call him back. He's young and most likely stupid so............... it should be interesting. I trust Brett that nothing is going on with this Katie girl which doesn't really matter to me one way or the other. So we shall see. In other new i had to pay like 350 to have my brakes and routers replaced. It sucks but had to be done. But yeah i'm looking forward to my tax refund. Also i'm reading some interesting books lately. I finnaly finished up this one:

Its by a wonderful author and is really funny. Check it out sometime.
Also been reading the series The Call of earth by Orson Scott Card. Many Sifi geeks will prolly know that name, these are the two book i've gotten through so far:


So until next time.
Its by a wonderful author and is really funny. Check it out sometime.
Also been reading the series The Call of earth by Orson Scott Card. Many Sifi geeks will prolly know that name, these are the two book i've gotten through so far:
So until next time.
- Location:Work
- Mood:
working - Music:Can't listen to music at work
Ok so my life sucks at the moment. So me and wolf are starting to have problems talking to each other but what can we expect with him being all the way over there in Germany. But also here recently my apartment flooded(damn toilet). Totally soaked my apartment but could have been worse. Then i have recently found out that my husband might, i say might get called in for an investigation for being inappropriate with a fellow officer. Now nothing happened bc Wolf would have told me if it had. But there were pictures on myspace and they didn't look good. Now I've had that happened to me. People get the wrong impression due to pictures or the situation. So I understand but i feel that they should all be more responsible than that. And this could possibly effect when he comes home. So needless to say i'm mad at him. He should have known better than to let bad looking pictures like that get out of the camera that they are taken. I have no sympathy for him now. Did this to himself. And another thing that's worse is that I don't know this girl. So when he talks about her I'm like who? That bugs me big time. *sighs* And yesterday was the Full moon and because of my apartment flooding i didn't do anything. I was too tired. I did laundry so that the wet stuff could get dry and then crashed out on the couch. Boy i hate my life sometimes.
- Location:Work
- Mood:
pensive
Ever feel like you have been lying to yourself? If feel that maybe all of the decisions that you have made this far has been bad and you’ve only been telling yourself this is fine, it’ll be alright? That’s kind of how I am feeling at this moment. I’m starting to wonder if I haven’t been just lying to myself trying my hardest to over look serious problems in my life. I’m good at it, I tell myself that I’m just over looking the issue because in the long run does it really matter? The answer, It always matters in the long. When an issue comes up I always think “I’m over reacting, looking far too much into this situation, or I’m wrong and that person is right. I tell myself this because I want to desperately to believe what that person is telling because I want to believe in the good in people. I’m gullible, I’ve always known this and I tend to quite literally turn a blind eye to people when they start to lie and hurt me. It’s funny because the more the person hurts me the more that I don’t want to see the truth. And then when I do learn the truth I think to myself, No I’m not seeing this right and then the person in question will tell me another lie and I let myself believe it and go on with it. I’ve been lied to, I’ve been cheated, I’ve been hurt by people that I have deeply loved and trusted. But hey who hasn’t? But now I am starting to think that when does it end? When do I stop that cycle? When do I finally start choosing the right people to trust? When do I tell the people that are hurting me, I’m done? The answer? I don’t know, I’m still wanting to cling onto my false happiness for right now. My false contentment. Let those around me that I trust keep up their lies for now and do nothing. What would you do? Would trade more pain if you could go on being blissfully unaware? Would you make the trade? You think that you know the answer, I thought I did, but when are put into the situation, you will find yourself hesitant, and double guessing yourself. Beautiful human nature.
- Mood:
numb - Music:Coin Operated Boy by Dresden Dolls
So here's just another update into my wonderful life. Currently right now I'm learning the wonderful
art of Poi Spinning. It's fire spinning, don't know what it is google it. I'm obessed with it.
I'm learning quickly and I'm hoping to actually spin fire around beltane. :) our haven here I come.
So with poi lessons i also bought a new Tarot Deck. Yes me who said that no other deck talked to me
more than the White deck i bought the Hidden Path deck. The imagery is completely different than the
traditional decks but a beautiful deck none the less. Its just getting used to looking at the cards
a different way that takes a while. Also bought a new Bast Statue to put on my desk. Now my Goddess
can watch over me at work. Boy that just sounds wrong.
Speaking of work.....................who the hell has open houses at their work??? I'm suppose to
bring family to this thing???? What family, other than Bear that's 3. Wolf is still in Germany but
coming home in April. So i'm looking forward to that. But yeah again I'm not inviting mom and dad
to a work open house I think not.
So Yule is almost upon us. Where has this year gone? Longest night is almost here, can't believe it.
I've been married for almost 4 months and Wolf has been gone now for over 2 years. That doesn't really
sound right does it??? This year has been a whirlwind. Life can get so complicated but really whose
fault is it?? NO one but my own really. I'll be posting some yuletide goodies on my covenspace page,
at http://indypagans.covenspace.com . So please go a take a look in the next couple of days. Bright Blessings
every one and Merry Yule.
art of Poi Spinning. It's fire spinning, don't know what it is google it. I'm obessed with it.
I'm learning quickly and I'm hoping to actually spin fire around beltane. :) our haven here I come.
So with poi lessons i also bought a new Tarot Deck. Yes me who said that no other deck talked to me
more than the White deck i bought the Hidden Path deck. The imagery is completely different than the
traditional decks but a beautiful deck none the less. Its just getting used to looking at the cards
a different way that takes a while. Also bought a new Bast Statue to put on my desk. Now my Goddess
can watch over me at work. Boy that just sounds wrong.
Speaking of work.....................who the hell has open houses at their work??? I'm suppose to
bring family to this thing???? What family, other than Bear that's 3. Wolf is still in Germany but
coming home in April. So i'm looking forward to that. But yeah again I'm not inviting mom and dad
to a work open house I think not.
So Yule is almost upon us. Where has this year gone? Longest night is almost here, can't believe it.
I've been married for almost 4 months and Wolf has been gone now for over 2 years. That doesn't really
sound right does it??? This year has been a whirlwind. Life can get so complicated but really whose
fault is it?? NO one but my own really. I'll be posting some yuletide goodies on my covenspace page,
at http://indypagans.covenspace.com . So please go a take a look in the next couple of days. Bright Blessings
every one and Merry Yule.
- Location:Work
- Mood:
busy
So yeah life's sometimes weird,
I know that everyone says that at one point or another but really life can tend to take the
twist of a life time. So here recently at work there have been rumors flying around at
work about me and more than one of the guys at work. Now normally, i would just ignore
it and leave it alone but now I'm starting to worry that my management is starting
to wonder if the rumors are right. I mean I like my techs don't get me wrong but this
is work for crying out loud. So i did a reflection spell last night. Bad thing is that
i didn't have a mirror so i used a piece of foil instead. Gotta do whatca gotta do.
:)
No the other thing that's happening in my life is that I've meet a very interesting
man. Unlike any other person I've meet before. Now me and him are just friends(in case
any of u don't know that I'm married), but he is so interesting. I did a search on him
for emotions. I can sum up that experience in one word "Ow". It hurt, allot, when i
first tried to push through I got a headache. Took me twice just to get through. Then
once i was in i saw his heart, it was still beating but it was like encased in a thin
layer of ice. He told me that he was cold hearted but i mean, i kinda saw it literally.
Then i tried to follow a thread, with me people have thread's that spread through out
them that lead to different parts of them selfs, emotions, memories etc, i tried
following a particular black
thread when all of sudden, and i mean all of a sudden, i get a flash of a wing and then
BAM throw out of his head. Ok, now in case people don't know this, being thrown out of
someone's head hurts. Its happened a couple of times to me but normally i get some type
of warning. With this it was just BAM, thrown out. So yeah "Ow".
And there is also another first with him, his colored changed. I've only seen one
other person's color change like his. His color is normally purple with streaks of
gold in it. Intense but with a good soul. I've only seen purple in one other person
and she was prolly one of the most powerful witches i have ever meet, but she didn't
have control. Could that be it??? Could he just have allot of power? That might be it.
Maybe he has allot of power but just doesn't know how to control it yet? Normally if a
person has allot of power but no control it bleeds over to their color making their color
change dramatically. In one day i saw this guy go from Purple with gold to a sunshine
Green to a blue, back to purple. Those are big changes in color. Ummm interesting,
please people give me your thoughts on why his color changes. Its an interesting puzzle.
I know that everyone says that at one point or another but really life can tend to take the
twist of a life time. So here recently at work there have been rumors flying around at
work about me and more than one of the guys at work. Now normally, i would just ignore
it and leave it alone but now I'm starting to worry that my management is starting
to wonder if the rumors are right. I mean I like my techs don't get me wrong but this
is work for crying out loud. So i did a reflection spell last night. Bad thing is that
i didn't have a mirror so i used a piece of foil instead. Gotta do whatca gotta do.
:)
No the other thing that's happening in my life is that I've meet a very interesting
man. Unlike any other person I've meet before. Now me and him are just friends(in case
any of u don't know that I'm married), but he is so interesting. I did a search on him
for emotions. I can sum up that experience in one word "Ow". It hurt, allot, when i
first tried to push through I got a headache. Took me twice just to get through. Then
once i was in i saw his heart, it was still beating but it was like encased in a thin
layer of ice. He told me that he was cold hearted but i mean, i kinda saw it literally.
Then i tried to follow a thread, with me people have thread's that spread through out
them that lead to different parts of them selfs, emotions, memories etc, i tried
following a particular black
thread when all of sudden, and i mean all of a sudden, i get a flash of a wing and then
BAM throw out of his head. Ok, now in case people don't know this, being thrown out of
someone's head hurts. Its happened a couple of times to me but normally i get some type
of warning. With this it was just BAM, thrown out. So yeah "Ow".
And there is also another first with him, his colored changed. I've only seen one
other person's color change like his. His color is normally purple with streaks of
gold in it. Intense but with a good soul. I've only seen purple in one other person
and she was prolly one of the most powerful witches i have ever meet, but she didn't
have control. Could that be it??? Could he just have allot of power? That might be it.
Maybe he has allot of power but just doesn't know how to control it yet? Normally if a
person has allot of power but no control it bleeds over to their color making their color
change dramatically. In one day i saw this guy go from Purple with gold to a sunshine
Green to a blue, back to purple. Those are big changes in color. Ummm interesting,
please people give me your thoughts on why his color changes. Its an interesting puzzle.
- Mood:
amused
Back Again,
Ok so here lately alot has happened. I've been hanging out with people more, which is
strange for me. I'm normally kinda antisocial. Not really by choice but not too many
people are ok with hanging out with a 3 year old at the same time. But here lately
i've been finding myself barely at my apartment. Don't get me wrong I'm enjoying
socializing with people but its such a new concept for me. Plus my cat luna is starting
not to like me with me being away so much. She's still a kitten. I'm now having problems
balancing my social life with my family life. My mom has had my daughter for the past
couple of days and i'm enjoying the time without her but then a part of me is still
nagging, Is it wrong of me to really enjoy my time without her? Do normally families feel
the same? I know that when families have more than one child its very nice to get some
time alone but is it ok for a mother of one to want to be away from her daughter? Its
something i have often wonder about. I got pregnant young but should that really matter?
Should age matter on how u think of patenting?
Ok so here lately alot has happened. I've been hanging out with people more, which is
strange for me. I'm normally kinda antisocial. Not really by choice but not too many
people are ok with hanging out with a 3 year old at the same time. But here lately
i've been finding myself barely at my apartment. Don't get me wrong I'm enjoying
socializing with people but its such a new concept for me. Plus my cat luna is starting
not to like me with me being away so much. She's still a kitten. I'm now having problems
balancing my social life with my family life. My mom has had my daughter for the past
couple of days and i'm enjoying the time without her but then a part of me is still
nagging, Is it wrong of me to really enjoy my time without her? Do normally families feel
the same? I know that when families have more than one child its very nice to get some
time alone but is it ok for a mother of one to want to be away from her daughter? Its
something i have often wonder about. I got pregnant young but should that really matter?
Should age matter on how u think of patenting?
- Mood:
stressed
Ok where do I start, how about some background. So me and my husband have known each other for about 9 years now. We just started to date about a year ago and got married 2 months ago on the 17th. He dated a woman before me and him got together. This woman was married and is still married. Although her and her husband were in an open relationship at the time, she decided to break things off with my husband, because she was going to try to save her marriage and she was trying to have a baby with her husband. So this goes on for a while and then I enter the picture with my feelings for him and me and him decide to date and see where we go. Well once me and him started to date that did his ex enter the picture once more to say that she loved him and only him. Not her husband. Now my husband informs her that he’s no longer in love with her. Now where some women would bow out and leave well enough alone this one does not. She decides to try to win my husband back. She tells him that she would never stop loving him and that she would not support our relationship until we got married.
Well we get married. He was back on his leave (he’s in the air force and stationed over in Germany) and she wanted to come from out of state to see him. Now I’ve meet this woman twice, both times I actually liked her. But after I left Germany the second time, during that time she told me how happy she was for us and how great we were together, she once more goes up to my husband (once I’m gone)and informs him that he should be with her and that she would leave her husband for him. So I started to change my option of this woman, needless to say I no longer liked her at that point. Call me old fashioned but if a woman doesn’t have respect for me then I have none for her. So during his leave when she wanted to come and see him, I got upset. I didn’t want him to see her. Now I told my husband that it would be his choice but that I felt it was best just for her not to come over. From out of state. So he decides that she should not come and visit. I will take responsibility for this decision and I wouldn’t change it. So, being an understanding person, I wasn’t about to tell my husband that he couldn’t talk to her, after all I feel that he really is trying to be her friend. Although I have told him that he might be trying to be her friend but she is not being his. If she really was his friend then she would respect me and him and support our marriage.
Now I’m a jealous person to be begin with. So all this really isn’t helping. And now I’ve gotten a chance to read one of her blogs. Now most of it is about how much she still loves my husband and how he completed her and how she doesn’t want to break us up but she wants to be with him. So now I’ve had enough. You I didn’t really hate her before but I sure as hell do now. I felt sorry for her and hoped that she would find happiness in her OWN husband or with someone else. Instead she is still clinging onto my husband. She stated in her blog, she’s not sure if she should just walk away from the “friendship.” But this woman is afraid that if she does then my husband will know that she didn’t truly love him. She acts like our marriage is nothing but an inconvenient thing and that he’ll see the light if only she stays around long enough. I would like that since she was the one to break off the relationship first, that that states that she didn’t love him as much as she thought. But that’s just my reasoning. So tell me everyone, because I really want people’s input on this. Do you feel that I’m over reacting? Or should I just let this slide and deal?
Well we get married. He was back on his leave (he’s in the air force and stationed over in Germany) and she wanted to come from out of state to see him. Now I’ve meet this woman twice, both times I actually liked her. But after I left Germany the second time, during that time she told me how happy she was for us and how great we were together, she once more goes up to my husband (once I’m gone)and informs him that he should be with her and that she would leave her husband for him. So I started to change my option of this woman, needless to say I no longer liked her at that point. Call me old fashioned but if a woman doesn’t have respect for me then I have none for her. So during his leave when she wanted to come and see him, I got upset. I didn’t want him to see her. Now I told my husband that it would be his choice but that I felt it was best just for her not to come over. From out of state. So he decides that she should not come and visit. I will take responsibility for this decision and I wouldn’t change it. So, being an understanding person, I wasn’t about to tell my husband that he couldn’t talk to her, after all I feel that he really is trying to be her friend. Although I have told him that he might be trying to be her friend but she is not being his. If she really was his friend then she would respect me and him and support our marriage.
Now I’m a jealous person to be begin with. So all this really isn’t helping. And now I’ve gotten a chance to read one of her blogs. Now most of it is about how much she still loves my husband and how he completed her and how she doesn’t want to break us up but she wants to be with him. So now I’ve had enough. You I didn’t really hate her before but I sure as hell do now. I felt sorry for her and hoped that she would find happiness in her OWN husband or with someone else. Instead she is still clinging onto my husband. She stated in her blog, she’s not sure if she should just walk away from the “friendship.” But this woman is afraid that if she does then my husband will know that she didn’t truly love him. She acts like our marriage is nothing but an inconvenient thing and that he’ll see the light if only she stays around long enough. I would like that since she was the one to break off the relationship first, that that states that she didn’t love him as much as she thought. But that’s just my reasoning. So tell me everyone, because I really want people’s input on this. Do you feel that I’m over reacting? Or should I just let this slide and deal?
- Music:Swinging by John Anderson
There is no one word that can describe Our Haven. When you first enter
from the gate you are greeted warmly with a sign that states "
Welcome Home". You later find out that this is the slogan of Our
Haven. "Welcome Home" are the only words that describe Our Haven. But
I will try my best to describe my time there.
After the 1 ½ to 2 hour camp setup, you locate the nearest camp fire
to sit around, or you make one yourself. The women around the camp
fire are beautiful and wear nothing but shirts, sarongs, or shorts to
keep cool in the heat of the day. Not long after putting up your tent
then you are greeted by a aging man. He sits down next to you and
your fire and starts to talk to you. After a warm "Welcome Home" a man
named Monnie sets down. At first glance this man appears to be an
aging grandfather full of wisdom that you would want to soak up. But
then you start to notice things, like that he's wearing a sarong and
that he's smoking weird cigarettes. And the more you talk to him the
more interesting the stories become. His favorite is the "Blond and
the Fox". If you haven't heard it already then ask him about it.
Now once Monnie sees someone else putting up their tent, he'll make
his way to them and start the process all over again. You wonder about
the grounds until the sun starts to set and then it's food time. Now
here you have a couple of choices. Either you can make your way up to
the concessions for home cooked food for less than 5 dollars or just
join someone around a fire and somehow food will find it's way into
your lap. For there is put one rule at Our Haven, share with us and we
share with you.
Once everyone is feed and the sun has said it's Farwell then do your
start to see people dressed in jeans with red suspenders. These are
the Fire Tenders. They spin fire, make fire, and well celebrate fire.
You will see them with a blow torch creating fires though out the
grounds. Then they start to work on the "Main Fire". This in itself is
a big event. For the fire needs to look a certain and feel a certain
way for energy and safety. Safety is the other top concern of the fire
tenders. But both of these goals are always achieved.
Once the Main Fire is lit you will start to see the women have changed
into low flowing skirts or dresses and the men have taken off their
shirts. Then it's Story Time. Since it is close to Samhian, it is a
time for ghost stories. Brent entertains us for a few minutes with his
deep velvet voice, and his first stories of seeing spirits. After that
people step in with different stories and meditations.
Then the drums begin to beat. It starts off soft but then grows as
more people start to drum. The beat fills the air like a heart beat of
the night. You look around the fire and slowly you start to see people
move. It starts with just a slow movement of someone's hips and then
intensives. You suddenly see a woman in a long flowing skirt in front
of the fire. It seems she has liquid silver for a top. She starts in a
slow movement of hips and arms. Moving as a goddess moves. The
movement is slow but then the drums pick up and her movements grow
from seductive to glorious. She entertains everyone around the fire
with her body and glory. No one can look away. She will continue to
dance the goddess dance as long as she is able. But slowly people
make their way back to their tents some to sleep and other's to burn
off energy.
You then have a choice to make. You can either go to sleep at anytime
or you can wait until dawn for the blue shift fire tenders. The dawn
shift. If you choose the first option then good luck trying to sleep
through the drumming and laughter. If you choose to stay up then you
will get to enjoy dancing, drumming, drinking, and a overall wonderful
time. Then we hit the hay until around noon of the next day. Although
sleep in at you own risk because breakfast is served at 8am.
That is one night at Our Haven. I went down there for their October
Fest. The whole weekend they had workshops and general gatherings that
were wonderful. And even though after 10 pm the clothing was optional,
it was tactfully done. There was no awkwardness, no shame. Then energy
was wonderful and I miss it even now only being gone 2 days. There
was no sex out in the open for all the children to see. There was
nothing like that, just a wonderful time and great vibes. Everyone was
so very nice to me there. I went with the Witches Meetup group. Go to
Meetup.com and look them up. They are a wonderful bunch of ladies and
man(sorry brent). They made me feel more welcome than other group I
have been to and I've been to a lot of groups. I felt that I had a
real connection there. I invite everyone that can to go down there
sometime and camp. They are located in French Lick, In. Check out
their website at www.ourhaven.info . That was my experience at Our
Haven. It truly was like "Coming Home".
from the gate you are greeted warmly with a sign that states "
Welcome Home". You later find out that this is the slogan of Our
Haven. "Welcome Home" are the only words that describe Our Haven. But
I will try my best to describe my time there.
After the 1 ½ to 2 hour camp setup, you locate the nearest camp fire
to sit around, or you make one yourself. The women around the camp
fire are beautiful and wear nothing but shirts, sarongs, or shorts to
keep cool in the heat of the day. Not long after putting up your tent
then you are greeted by a aging man. He sits down next to you and
your fire and starts to talk to you. After a warm "Welcome Home" a man
named Monnie sets down. At first glance this man appears to be an
aging grandfather full of wisdom that you would want to soak up. But
then you start to notice things, like that he's wearing a sarong and
that he's smoking weird cigarettes. And the more you talk to him the
more interesting the stories become. His favorite is the "Blond and
the Fox". If you haven't heard it already then ask him about it.
Now once Monnie sees someone else putting up their tent, he'll make
his way to them and start the process all over again. You wonder about
the grounds until the sun starts to set and then it's food time. Now
here you have a couple of choices. Either you can make your way up to
the concessions for home cooked food for less than 5 dollars or just
join someone around a fire and somehow food will find it's way into
your lap. For there is put one rule at Our Haven, share with us and we
share with you.
Once everyone is feed and the sun has said it's Farwell then do your
start to see people dressed in jeans with red suspenders. These are
the Fire Tenders. They spin fire, make fire, and well celebrate fire.
You will see them with a blow torch creating fires though out the
grounds. Then they start to work on the "Main Fire". This in itself is
a big event. For the fire needs to look a certain and feel a certain
way for energy and safety. Safety is the other top concern of the fire
tenders. But both of these goals are always achieved.
Once the Main Fire is lit you will start to see the women have changed
into low flowing skirts or dresses and the men have taken off their
shirts. Then it's Story Time. Since it is close to Samhian, it is a
time for ghost stories. Brent entertains us for a few minutes with his
deep velvet voice, and his first stories of seeing spirits. After that
people step in with different stories and meditations.
Then the drums begin to beat. It starts off soft but then grows as
more people start to drum. The beat fills the air like a heart beat of
the night. You look around the fire and slowly you start to see people
move. It starts with just a slow movement of someone's hips and then
intensives. You suddenly see a woman in a long flowing skirt in front
of the fire. It seems she has liquid silver for a top. She starts in a
slow movement of hips and arms. Moving as a goddess moves. The
movement is slow but then the drums pick up and her movements grow
from seductive to glorious. She entertains everyone around the fire
with her body and glory. No one can look away. She will continue to
dance the goddess dance as long as she is able. But slowly people
make their way back to their tents some to sleep and other's to burn
off energy.
You then have a choice to make. You can either go to sleep at anytime
or you can wait until dawn for the blue shift fire tenders. The dawn
shift. If you choose the first option then good luck trying to sleep
through the drumming and laughter. If you choose to stay up then you
will get to enjoy dancing, drumming, drinking, and a overall wonderful
time. Then we hit the hay until around noon of the next day. Although
sleep in at you own risk because breakfast is served at 8am.
That is one night at Our Haven. I went down there for their October
Fest. The whole weekend they had workshops and general gatherings that
were wonderful. And even though after 10 pm the clothing was optional,
it was tactfully done. There was no awkwardness, no shame. Then energy
was wonderful and I miss it even now only being gone 2 days. There
was no sex out in the open for all the children to see. There was
nothing like that, just a wonderful time and great vibes. Everyone was
so very nice to me there. I went with the Witches Meetup group. Go to
Meetup.com and look them up. They are a wonderful bunch of ladies and
man(sorry brent). They made me feel more welcome than other group I
have been to and I've been to a lot of groups. I felt that I had a
real connection there. I invite everyone that can to go down there
sometime and camp. They are located in French Lick, In. Check out
their website at www.ourhaven.info . That was my experience at Our
Haven. It truly was like "Coming Home".
Wow so yeah so Wow. Well right now I'm mostly on cloud nine even if I'm at work. See for the past couple of days my life hasn't been going all that great. Lily needed to go to the dentist, Medicaid was screwed up so we could right aways like we needed to. A new policy at work stated that if we miss 3 days unexcused then we are fired. So i had to take off for Lily's check up, then i had to try to request off for her dentist appointment, and then i was trying to get this Friday off to go camping. Now I'm on my own right at the moment since my husband is over in Germany so money is pretty tight so if i had to take off again for lily's dentist appointment then i would have to work on Friday. But just yesterday my mom offered to take lily to the dentist for me. I was able to switch things around and now i don't have to miss work on Thursday and I'm going to go ahead and go down to Our Haven on Friday. I actually got ahold of my case worker and was able to get the Medicaid to cover her dentist. So yeah life is pretty good at the moment. I can't wait for camping this weekend even through its suppose to rain. But I don't even have to buy a tent. My dad is letting me borrow his. I'm good right now. The only thing that can make this day better is for my husband to call me. But oh well I take what I can get.
- Location:Work
- Mood:
peaceful - Music:"Where do I fit in" by Lennon
So here I am for another update. As many of you might have known Pagan Pride Day was Saturday and it was a blast. It was a lot bigger than I would have thought. I had tons of fun. Plus they also feed me and lily. Always a plus. Jan(from the Magic Candle) had a booth so I was very happy to see her and she was also running the Gaia booth as well. I’m telling you this woman can do it all I swear. So check out her site on the web just Google The Magic Candle. It should come up. There was also World of Wisdom shop booth although I don’t know the woman’s name but another great shop to check out. I also really enjoyed the drumming circle that was there. Anyone with a drum was able to join in it was great. The drumming got you into another place that was for sure.
I was also able to meet the wonderful ladies of Witches Meetup. I’ve joined the group a while ago but was never able to go out and see them. I was able to meet them and they are bunch of great women. We all of a sudden just clicked and they all fell in love with lily. Best part is that they are all going to Our Haven for the October Fest that’s going on next weekend. I’m planning on going so now I’ll have people to hang out with while I’m there and someone to pitch my tent next to. If I’ve said it once I’ve said it a million times, I love Pagans. They’re always so friendly. So head over to Meetup.com and sign up for Witches meetup if you haven’t already. So that’s pretty much how my weekend was. I’ll be posting pictures after next weekend of pictures from the October Fest. Wish me luck and warm weather everyone.

I was also able to meet the wonderful ladies of Witches Meetup. I’ve joined the group a while ago but was never able to go out and see them. I was able to meet them and they are bunch of great women. We all of a sudden just clicked and they all fell in love with lily. Best part is that they are all going to Our Haven for the October Fest that’s going on next weekend. I’m planning on going so now I’ll have people to hang out with while I’m there and someone to pitch my tent next to. If I’ve said it once I’ve said it a million times, I love Pagans. They’re always so friendly. So head over to Meetup.com and sign up for Witches meetup if you haven’t already. So that’s pretty much how my weekend was. I’ll be posting pictures after next weekend of pictures from the October Fest. Wish me luck and warm weather everyone.
- Location:Home
- Mood:
lonely - Music:Chicago is so two years ago by Fall Out Boy
So that was another day of full filling day work. I had to take my daughter to the doctor today for a check up that is required by her Daycare. The best part is that the stupid medical insurance messed up my daughters name and now I have to fix that before they will actually pay for it. Me not a happy camper. And now my daughter has to go to the dentist to have one of her teeth looked at. She's only 3 for fuck sake but no everything has to happen at once. And before we get the military insurance from my husband. So yeah life kinda sucks at this point. But on a happier note I got my hair all chopped off and dyed black with bits of red in it. I love the cut but my husband doesn't like short hair so he's not too happy. Oh well. The look is kinda pixie meets goth. Very cool. Not saying that I'm turning goth(wait what?) but I'm liking it. I'm currently trying to expand my music so if anyone knows any good bands let me know. Thanks
- Mood:
moody - Music:Half Jack by the Dresden Dolls
Well I finnaly did it. I finally got a cat. And she's the sweetest thing ever. Her name is Luna and I got her from a friend that my sister knows. This woman found this momma cat that had 4 kittens. She is still trying to get rid of the momma and two male cats. But they were all very cute but Luna was the only one that just cuddled up in my arms. I fell in love. My daughter is doing well with Luna too. When lily and Luna first meet,Luna let lily hold her and just stayed put. Didn't scratch or anything. Yeah I think i made the right choice getting Luna. All last night we just watched TV and cuddled. Oh yeah she's an attention whore but I love her. *sighs happily*. And my husband doesn't mind having a cat around although he really doesn't have a much to say on the subject. Oh well he will get his dog in about a year or so.
- Location:Work
- Mood:
excited
Huh i've been on live journal for a while now and i've never even posted anything. But isn't that how most of us are. That we sign up for something that we think a we are going to use on a daily basis and then low and behold we never use it. I mean I work all day in a the place that wishes it was hell and sit in front of a computer all day long and i've never once gotten back on here. But here I am and I'm posting something. Go me. So here recently one of my friends has gotten me to watch the Mr. Show. Now parts of this show are quite hilarious. But other parts not so much. Such as the rock band that didn't know that they were gay. Not really a fan of that skit. But others like the Hitler skit is really quite funny. So I guess really that's all I've got to say for my first entry.

- Location:Work
- Mood:
bored
